"The sum total of human knowledge consists of an endless series of doubtful
bulletins."Thomas L. Masson, The City of Perfection, 1927
For those who may take offense at the use of faith and prayer and God and good
and evil, even if you removed every one of those words from this page
forgiveness still works. (Link to
God-less version) BUT the personal, instantaneous, realization of God's love
for you is so profound I pray you do not miss it.
Early in my
work as a clinical nutritionist I became aware that some of my clients had
difficulty selecting and eating foods that were good for them. When these
clients were asked to 'listen to their body' they did not understand. They could
not tell if the food they were eating made them feel good or bad. They could not
tell if they needed more sleep or exercise. They did not know if or when they
were hungry or thirsty or what foods might satisfy their hunger, if they were
able to recognize they were hungry.
It is my belief each
person has the ability to know what is right for him or herself. My intent is to
educate (v.-educare-to draw forth [inner knowing]) the natural wisdom of the
client. I make available to the client knowledge that the client already has. It
is within ourselves we find the information we need to take care of ourselves.
The more out-of-touch one is with the messages of his or her own body, the
greater their dependency on the authority of others and the less able they are
to take care of themselves. Such persons do not know what they really want, do
not believe they can know what is best for them and do not believe that if they
knew they could get what they want and need.
In 1983 I began
working with adult and child victims of physical and sexual abuse. All victims
exhibited the same lack of awareness and lack of ability to respond to the
body's messages that I had seen in some of my clients. They could not ask for,
or even know, what they wanted and needed and they were unable to refuse what
they did not want.
This unexpected involvement with abuse
victims recalled earlier experiences I had had in 1974 working with Peter H.C.
Mutke, M.D., Psychosomatic Medicine, and Barry Goodfield, Ph.D. Of many unusual
cases I was able to observe, two stand out as indicative of the probable causes
of injury and the direction I feel healing must take.
session of hypnotic recall, a lawyer in his late 30's was put before a
thermography machine (liquid nitrogen imaging). While remembering a beating he
received from his father at 9 months of age heat patterns appeared and we were
able to see hand prints clearly on his body. What made this even more
interesting is that the hand prints were the size of a man's hand on a child's
body, expanded with age. I believe memory is more than in the mind. I believe it
is concurrently stored in the body. The memory of the beating had been stored
within his cells.
The second case involved a individual born
with a club foot. At age 40 an operation was performed to correct the condition.
The foot continued to cause pain and disability. Using thermography the foot's
temperature was found to be significantly cooler than the rest of his body and
his other foot. No medical cause could be found to account for this discrepancy.
When the man was instructed to "love" his foot, to forgive the foot for the pain
it and humiliation it had caused him, to incorporate it into his thought in a
positive way using focused attention, the foot healed and its temperature
normalized without further complication.
An abused or injured
person "leaves" his body where the memory/feeling is located. This removal of
one's consciousness is done automatically whether the original incident of abuse
was intentional or unintentional. This separation occurs to, hopefully, relieve
the pain. Psychology calls this disassociation. The mind and body must be
reunited. If the memory continues to contain the original feelings of fear,
anger and/or pain it becomes difficult or impossible for reunification to occur.
This is true for anyone who has gone through any traumatic experience, from
prisoner of war to abandoned child to sexually or physically abused child or
adult or even from repeated surgeries such as in severe burn injury. It may also
occur after a great loss.
We do not cause ourselves 'suffering'
(rare exceptions) but are responsible for continuing to feel associated rage,
self-pity, anger, fear, or pain. We may try to block it out, forget about it. We
may believe that remembering and discussing our victimization, or screaming or
crying or otherwise expressing our anger, pain, fear and rage will get rid of
this awful chemistry. It has been my experience that until clients willingly
forgive and forget, old fear, anger and pain reflect into current events.
Whether blocking or engaging in therapy aimed at expressing or feeling your
pain, reliving the incident, either will simply further imbed and petrify the
Most of us have not been taught to choose our
feelings. Some "bury" past negative incidents or feelings. Others express over
and over their emotional or physical pain and victimization. Family
members, friends or society may encourage the burial of incidents/feelings
because the feelings are too frightening to be expressed. Others may encourage
continually expressing your sorrow and pain, endlessly to everyone, or suggest
you join groups or visit therapists who encourage reliving your pain.
In some families, most members may bury their feelings "successfully" until one
member becomes the "actor" for the group. Repetition of events will continue to
occur until associated feelings are changed by free choice. I did not say 'until
feelings are expressed'. Continually remembering bad things make actually make
you worse, deepening the rift between body and spirit.
child has been raised in a critical, abusive or neglectful environment by
parents who see the world in a negative, frightening, or hopeless way, the child
will feel that that is the way of the world and discount positive experiences as
exceptions to be overlooked. Likewise the loved and nurtured child sees negative
experiences as unusual occurrences quickly passing.
clear that the actions and attitudes of parents, other family members and school
personnel towards the child influence the way the child will perceive him or
herself and the world. However, no matter what our original heredity or
environment, we can consciously alter that conditioning.
are no perfect lives, perfect parents, perfect societies, perfect schools,
bosses or jobs. It is important to encourage good parenting and nurturing
societal values but even our best attempts will at times cause offense to our
children or our neighbors. It is necessary that all of us, adults and children
alike, learn the true value of forgiveness -- the physical, cellular, forgetting
of the envy, greed, anger, fear and pain associated with the past and the
freedom of living a life from within.
The value of forgiveness
is not in its power to grant freedom to an offender but in its power to give
wholeness to the victim. Forgiveness does not mean the offender is not brought
to account, though they may or may not be, but that the victim is fully restored
to a state of mind and body that is without wound or scar.
Victims do not
deserve to be victims but the damage can not be repaired by the offender, nor is
it repaired by punishment of the offender.
The victim is
healed, made free, by his or her willing removal of the feelings associated with
This change of feeling may be helped by the
action of others but the work of change must be done by the victim.
One stops being a victim by refusing (rejecting and deleting, not ignoring or
burying or suppressing) the feelings associated with the victimization and
allowing God to heal.
We all wish to change our feelings of
victimization (otherwise known as fear, pain, sorrow, grief, anger, rage) and
some persons try to over come these feelings by becoming victimizers. It appears
that "getting the other guy" is better than "being gotten", but appearances are
deceiving. This technique does not work because the victim's core feelings have
not been changed.
The mammalian or animal "way" is and has
always been "power over others". The way of the conscious Christian human is
"God's power within". When a person�s conceptual reality is shifted to a
knowledge of having this power within, personal peace will be attained.
Only when one is at peace with oneself is peace with others possible.
When we discover that we have personal choice in our feelings and begin to use
this free will, no situation, however harmful, fearful, or painful, past,
present, or future can have any lasting effect on our being. This ability has
been discovered by every healthy, happy, survivor of any great disaster or
A survivor is one who can walk through the fire and not be burned. They
retain no physical/chemical memory of the incident. The mind is free, the
body memory unmarked. This may only be achieved by forgiveness.
A prisoner in the most terrifying and abusive prison in this world is free if he
completely rejects his imprisonment, if he refuses to see his captors as
captors, if he refuses fear, anger, and hatred, and refuses to see
(accept) himself as victim.
To be able to change
our destiny we choose and God changes the memory of the body, mind and soul.
This is done with faith, persistence and God's grace.
Focus attention within your body and mind. Use any relaxation technique you
like. You may sit or lie down. When you are fully relaxed, no discernible
tension in any muscle, allow your mind to drift over historical (your own)
events. Search for feelings associated with past situations you assume to have a
negative influence on your current life. Ask God to help you in this process.
Such feelings could include being unwanted, being neglected or abused
INTENTIONALLY OR UNINTENTIONALLY, accidents, illness, or surgery, difficulties
during puberty, ill-matched relationships or any other incidences of perceived
victimization bringing forth envy, anger, fear, pain, grief, or sorrow; anything
up until the present moment.
Do not focus on the
incidence/s, focus on the chemistry, the feelings.
your body "I don't want this/these feeling/s anymore." Tell God you are ready to
be free. Find the feelings that filter your view of reality. You may currently
have a feeling you would rather not have that was created by a letter, phone
call, or meeting within the past day or week or by remembering an occurrence or
relationship from many years ago. Repeat "I don't want this feeling anymore. God
please take it from me." over and over, again and again. Each time you
experience any of these negative feelings throughout the next days, weeks, and
months, repeat again "I truly don't want this feeling anymore. God please remove
this from me."
GOD loves YOU. Think about it.
In the 1700's a writer, mystic and philosopher by the name of Emanuel Swedenborg
noted, If any man is aware of something within him unpleasing to himself and to
God and will tell God he no longer wants this, God will remove it. In less time
than you imagine, the feelings you no longer want will be gone, for ever, if you
meant what you said (silently or aloud). God does the work, you do the choosing.
When I first became aware of this wonderful gift I spent several weeks offering
my 'junk'. There was so much to be rid of. I believe most of us need one
comprehensive past history forgiveness to clear out a lifetime of 'junk'
feelings (about as profitable as junk bonds to carry around and like junk bonds
others pay the price) and then do daily forgiving to keep us on track.
EXAMPLE: A thirty-five year old woman with chronic headaches from
childhood remembers her mother trying to stop her crying when she was about 18
months old by choking her. CONCLUSION- If I ask for what I want I might die.
DECISION- I will get a headache to remind myself to not want and not ask. It was
a great survival mechanism for the infant but lousy for the adult.
Day and night, whenever the feelings came, she consciously rejected, over and
over again, the old feelings (told her body and God she didn't want that feeling
anymore) and began to experience and allow the feelings of being loved,
nurtured, protected and safe (God's kid). Shortly the cell memory was deleted.
The new feelings became stronger as the old disappeared. Her headaches
permanently disappeared. In addition she found it possible to know and to ask
for what she wanted.
EXAMPLE: A client received a phone call
informing her of a deadline she had missed. Her immediate feeling was fear and
helplessness. She immediately rejected the feeling, "I don't want this feeling"
and not only was she free from the negative emotions, she was able to find a way
to still get the desired outcome "I am God's kid, there is a way".
In present time surrendering feelings always changes actions. You want a
cigarette. You tell your body and God 'I don't want this feeling anymore'. You
are sincere. To the extent possible you don't smoke the cigarette. You are not
saying you don't want the cigarette, this would not be true, but you are saying
you don't want the feeling of wanting a cigarette. I have personally seen this
completely remove the desire for a cigarette within three days and this state
remained permanently. Without the feeling the action will not occur. Whatever
the feelings promoting negative behaviors against your self, family, neighbor,
or God they can be completely and permanently removed.
Cellular changes related to forgiveness may take days, weeks, or even months.
Don't stop. Do not give up. Keep rejecting the old and allowing the new (You are
God's kid). During this time God in you is re-patterning your cell memory to fit
your new life. Soon you will begin to see things differently and find your life
changing in wonderful ways.
This process is not based on
mental, intellectual ability. You should not tell God how you want to feel. You
need only tell Him how you do not want to feel. As you become adept you will
find yourself able to recognize and surrender feelings, by choice, at will. Only
what you decide about how you FEEL counts. Once your body realizes you have the
authority to choose the feeling, and that positive feelings feel better than
envy, pride, hatred, anger, greed, lust, fear and pain, it quickly responds.
We are what we believe/feel ourselves to be. For most, actions spring from
feelings. Our current beliefs and actions are drawn from what we believed/felt
to be true in our past, a compilation of hereditary and environmental input. The
cells of the body are not accurate in their memory or understanding but they are
faithful in generating expected chemistry. They register things like
abandonment, life threat, emotional or physical abuse, REAL OR IMAGINED,
INTENTIONAL OR UNINTENTIONAL, as personal and eternal. We expect these feelings;
they are familiar to us; they and situations associated with these feelings
reappear with frequency in our lives. From our past we bring forth 'evil',
hereditary and personal.
Initially our parental and cultural
beliefs/feelings/expectations are the seeming appearances in our lives. Later we
continue to reaffirm those same beliefs/feelings/expectations and carry on and
affirm our cell memories. Memory is retained as cell-memory chemistry (feeling)
by consistent re-experiencing of the feeling. This is the limitation of the
Spirit, God within, changes all that. When we
choose to change our feelings we allow God in us to remake the past, present and
future. We allow God to rule, not the body consciousness with its memories of
envy, anger, sorrow, pain and affliction.
The greater our
commitment to choosing feelings of love, joy, peace, mercy, kindness and justice
and rejecting the rest, the sooner these become our new personal truth. Personal
truth is made up of the beliefs and associated feelings which have total control
over the way in which we see the world. Where our old beliefs and feelings were
affirmed by and in our environment (the without in), our new 'chosen' beliefs
will soon out-picture in our environment (the within out).
We began life born of 'man' from body to mind, as
without, so within. We can choose to be born of God, as within, so without.
We are called to substitute beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, and praise for
despair. Where there was abandonment, support and comfort. Where there was
abuse, gentleness and understanding. Where there was fear, feelings of safety
and love. Where there was poverty, riches. Where there was ugliness let your
eyes be opened to beauty. DO THIS FOR YOURSELF AND OTHERS. To substitute means
to replace one for another. One is removed; the other is added. The situation
has not changed but the feelings have changed and outward change will follow as
the dawn follows the night.
YOU MUST DESIRE THE NEW
STATE, forgiveness, letting go of the anger, pain, fear, pride and sorrow, MORE
THAN YOU DESIRE THE MEMORY OF WHAT YOU THINK AND FEEL ORIGINALLY HAPPENED TO YOU
Thoughts, the things you think about, the things you listen to, and the way you
think about things, create feelings as much or more than actual events. The goal
is to renew the mind, to empty the self and allow God in with new, higher,
thoughts and feelings. Feelings generate physical chemistry. Actual blood
chemistry is different in people who are happy, sad, angry, fearful, depressed,
We use alcohol, antidepressants, stimulants,
painkillers and other types of drugs and behaviors, legal and illegal, to allow
us to change the way we feel. All drugs and aberrant behaviors have side-effects
and after-effects. These effects can be worse than the feelings we were trying
to change AND they wear off and the feelings we wished to change, remain.
It is possible to change our chemistry/feeling by free
will. We have the power to direct the way we think and what we think and
therefore what we feel.
Hypnosis can change the way we feel
but it is done unconsciously. When states are altered in the subconscious, where
free will cannot operate, the new state is similar to possession and will not be
permanent and will have consequences. I have seen persons using hypnosis to quit
smoking or other self-destructive behaviors soon begin other more serious
It is important that this act of
surrender and forgiveness be done by a person using free will in a fully
conscious state. Only then will the change be permanent and without
side-effects. Only then is God, Life within us, given permission to heal us so
that all that is within and without becomes new.
Self Change- Meditation, positive thinking, affirmations or other states of
concentration or 'mind power' can 'rebirth' someone. The problem is the person
can only 'heal' or be reborn within his or her own expectations which are
limited by personal history. It still remains, from the without, in.
You can tell if your changes
are from yourself or from God by how completely surprised and happy you are with
the results. There really are miracles, daily, hourly and 'right now'.
We feel that retaining a memory with its anger, fear or pain
(chemistry-feelings) is a defense that will protect us from further abuse,
misuse or destruction. This instinctive behavior is a part of mammalian
evolutionary development related to survival of the species in lower mammals. It
is no longer a useful means of boundary keeping. Truly effective means of
boundary keeping, self-sustenance and renewal will become evident as the
chemistry of envy, pain, sorrow, fear or loneliness is removed from cell memory.
If you are determined to keep old feelings, of envy, anger, fear and pain, you
can not be made whole, you cannot be healed. Jesus made no distinction between
healing and forgiveness of sins. Forgiveness is the removal of these old
feelings of victimization with need for revenge.
Sin is a
condition of separation that occurs inside of us as a result of something
unfortunate that has happened to us or we think has happened to us or that we
project may happen to us which we then perpetuate and solidify by holding in
memory. It is one or more feelings we hold inside that separate us from God,
ourselves and each other. When we forgive ourselves and each other, truly
forgetting the past, we begin to be connected to the life within us, God, and
our body in its wholeness, and out family and friends. Only then are we able to
be fully alive and aware.
God loves you. He
waits. Choose now to know His love.
By choosing those
things pleasing to God, the Ten Commandments, the Golden Rule, we are
reconnected with the "life of our self", God, and can use the instinctive
mammalian wisdom within our cells to help us make wise choices about food,
exercise, people, work (right lively hood) and more. We can only then trust our
ability to discern what is "right" for us. Life works only when we use the 'rule
of law' to guide us. We can access intuition within this frame of reference and
know if a person or situation is safe in present time instead of living in the
Each of us must learn when to listen to our instinctive
feelings and when to use our 'free will' to let them go. Is this feeling, and
the action I will take based on this feeling, in the best interests of myself
and others. Of course, you immediately recognized the GOLDEN RULE. Myself AND
others, both must be a consideration. As long as life exists this rule will not
change. It is the law of life itself. You/We are not alone.
the feeling leads to action that is harmful to yourself or others choose to let
it go. If you are not sure that the feeling-action is right or wrong consider
carefully the Bible or Torah, especially the Ten Commandments. There is good and
evil. There is right and wrong. When we believe that there are no absolutes, no
right or wrong, only relativity, we are lost for eternity, from God, from others
and from our self.
God is all-knowing, all
powerful, and everywhere present, right here, right now.
God told us to obey the commandments and live a long and happy life. He told us
truth. The law does not prevent happiness, it ensures it. Happiness and
longevity are never found in immorality, lies, deceit, jealousy, self delusion,
hypnotic trance, envy, gluttony, alcoholism, drug addition, adultery, lust,
pornography, sexual immorality, anger, murder, or revenge.
This is the art and science of life. Discern your feelings and associated
actions. Finding those that are displeasing to God, do not deny the feeling. Do
not ignore the feeling. Do not bury the feeling. CHOOSE TO REJECT THE FEELING
(and and thereby the associated action) AND IT IS CHANGED.
Some are unwilling to give up their feelings of envy, hatred, lust, anger, fear
or pain. Some have told me that they feel if they give up these feelings they
will not be the same person. They are right.
If you take on
the challenge of forgiveness you will find some very interesting things
beginning to happen around you. Do not talk about what you are doing. Just do
it. During the first stage you may find yourself being overwhelmed by feelings.
These are your old cell-memories generating strong chemistry. Feelings of
despair, hopelessness, anger, fear, anxiety and even rage may come to the
surface of your awareness. You may experience inertia, complacency, unhappiness,
doubt or extreme fatigue.
Do not take these feeling seriously.
Do not be horrified, fascinated or worried by them. Do not analyze them. Do not
condemn yourself for these feelings. Do not attempt to fight, resist or ignore
these feelings. Recognize that your old, no longer useful, beliefs, thoughts and
associated feelings are being broken up and destroyed, freeing you from the
bondage of evil- envy, fear, anger, pride, lust, greed, and pain.
Tell your body (and God) "I don't want these feelings any more". "I don't need
these feeling anymore". Let God take them. As the feelings surface, again and
again, repeat, "I don't want this feeling anymore, or this, or this".
Watch and see the miracle God will perform.
suggested that the Spirit of Life, God in us, is like water barely trickling
from an old corroded faucet filled with rust. It looks awful when the faucet is
first turned on, years of corrosion pouring out, the pain, sorrow, anger, fear,
loneliness. Let it go. It is just rust. Behind all this is the pure water of
Life itself, always there, always waiting for your will to choose.
God loves you and waits for you. Let Him in.
Initially we are conceived by our parents and our society, born of flesh. We
have the power to allow ourselves to be conceived by God. We can agree with our
parents and society or we can disagree and seek to destroy them, it, or
ourselves or WE CAN CHOOSE SOMETHING ENTIRELY DIFFERENT, to be born anew as
God's kid. Our reality is constructed from what we hold within ourselves as
We use our free will to
allow God, to heal our bodies, minds, and spirits, to give us the joy of
wholeness, of being freed from sickness of body and spirit, freed from envy,
hatred, greed, lust, loneliness, anger, fear, and pain.
If you do not practice forgiveness regularly you will fall into your old
patterns and find your feelings being controlled by your environment, your
reactions to family, friends, the media and other outside influences. You will
collect and carry an increasing load of fear (anxiety), anger and other negative
emotions. The task of choosing God is moment by moment, day in and day out. It
is a daily walk in the presence of the Holy (wholeness), God within.
God loves you, think about what that really means. God,
creator of all that is, loves you. How wonderful, how humbling, how healing, how
glorious, how joyous! Can you continue, will you dare, to hold on to your
When you fully understand what 'God loves
me' means, you will dare to love that which He loves, yourself and others.
True Religion is to love God (Life, the Spirit within us, Love, Good) above all
else and the neighbor as the self. We must freely choose to love God and hate
the demons of envy, self-pity, pride, depression, anxiety, fear, anger,
jealousy, hatred, lust and pain. When the demons are destroyed within each of
us, cast out by our free-will choosing, we know happiness and find peace with
ourselves and are able to give peace to each other. The Whole Spirit is always
waiting to heal.
God loves you. He waits for you.
What do you love?
It is required, for physical and mental
health, that we love and forgive, ourselves and others. Love requires kindness,
justice and mercy. All are strongly related to discernment. Let God remove those
demons! If you entertain your demons, even for a moment, they will destroy you.
You have the choice to love good (God), to allow good (God) to recreate the
cells of your body and mind.
If you do not choose to forgive,
yourself and others, past and present, and change your feelings of anger, pain,
lust, jealousy, envy, sorrow and fear into faith, hope and love, you will not
only continue to be victimized, you will victimize others, the inevitable
outcome of hatred, jealousy, self-pity, greed, pride, depression, lust, fear,
anger, envy, and pain.
I am not suggesting that bad things
have not happened to you. I am not suggesting that you deserved or caused bad
things to happen to you. I am not suggesting you have never done bad things. I
am not promising that bad things won't happen in the future. I am saying that
continuing damage from such incidences occurs because you willfully retain the
feelings (chemistry) associated with the incident. God has given man dominion
over the earth. You can choose evil. You can choose good. We can choose God.
De:30:19: I call heaven and earth to record this day
against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing;
therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live.
Blessing not cursing- these feelings are like bacteria in a wound. Your wounds
cannot be healed until the bacteria (negative emotion) is removed. Only you can
surrender the feelings and allow God to apply the soap of forgiveness and the
healing ointment of faith, hope and love. Reject the negative feelings. These
bacteria include pride, sorrow, self-pity, anger, rage, jealousy, envy,
depression, fear, anxiety, loneliness, deceit of self and others, lust, lies,
greed, and gluttony. When they appear in any form, immediately lay them on the
alter to be burned. Reject them out of hand. Cast them out. They are not yours
because you choose that they are not yours. God will take them, burn them. You
will be freed.
you. If you do not know this yet, pray. Pray that you NOW accept and experience
His Love. Make room for it. It is just there that Life begins. Ask.
Forgiveness, healing, happens inside yourself. It is from God, for you, because
you ask, because you desire it with all your heart. It can not happen if you
insist on keeping the envy, hatred, sorrow, pain, anger, resentment, jealousy,
envy, lust, deceit, OR FEAR; if you insist on holding any of the negative
feelings or actions; if you insist on holding on to your wounds and scars,
nurturing your pain. Holding on to these feelings or actions means you are not
yet ready to forgive, to be forgiven, or to be whole.
You will know you have truly forgiven when you remember an incident but no
longer have 'chemistry', any chemistry, of tears, envy, anger, fear, sorrow, or
pain. God loves you. Choose life.
From what we are to what we will become, without
money, without price, because we ask, we are healed. God bless us on our
The world contains both
good and evil. Evil touches our lives, often on a daily basis. Abuse, be it
physical, sexual, or emotional, comes from evil. To the degree we accept within
ourselves the evil done to us or by us we are overcome by evil. To the degree we
reject the evil done to us or by us we overcome evil with good. This is not
heaven, where evil is cast out, but earth and evil is alive and well. We walk
here freely, daily binding ourselves to heaven or hell by the choices we make
signified by that which we give our attention to, that which we love.
What do you love? Human knowledge? Money? Sex? Power? Appearance? Fame?
Success however defined?
23 Let not the wise man boast of
his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength or the rich man boast of his
24 but let him who boasts boast about this,:
that he understands and knows me, that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness,
justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight,� declares the LORD.
The Holy Bible : New International Version. 1996, (Jeremiah 9:23-24).
What will you give your time and attention to? What will
you boast about? Focus counts.
Fruits of the Spirit:
Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness
Deadly Sins: Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Wrath, Envy, Pride
�Krispin Sullivan, CN 1995 Last modified on:
May 08, 2013 .